Goodbye 2014

Goodbye to 2014.

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There are just a few hours to go before this year closes.  I’ve been wrestling with my word of the year the last couple days and in many ways I feel completely stuck on 2015.

2014 was a great year in so many ways, but if I’m honest I put a ton of pressure on myself.  My word of 2014 was seek.  I did a lot of seeking.  Many questions were answered, and yet a few questions remain a mystery. I learned who I can count on to go through trench warfare with me and who will let me be completely honest without wounding me with my own transparency.  There was so much striving to figure this stage of life out and how “to be” in this time of our lives.  If you think about it, we are bombarded constantly by messages telling us how being this way or that way is better than that way or this way.  These kinds of parents are superior (in their own minds) to those kinds of parents.  People with this set of gifts are better than people with that kind of talent. My kid is smarter than your kid.  I could go on and on, you get the picture.  We are hit with so many messages saying, “do more, do better” and “be more, be better”. It’s exhausting.

But now, I’m sort of stuck on what’s next. Uncharacteristically of me, I’m going to give myself permission not to know or try to figure it out.  So, I suppose my words for 2015 are “pause” and “follow”.

I’m choosing pause because I need to just give myself room to live for the fun of it.  I don’t want to fill every space.  Space is the best place to reflect on what matters.  When I fill my calendar with too much, I lose that sense of true connection and reflection.

I’m choosing follow because in 2015 I just want to follow God in what He shows us.  2015 is His year just like every other year.  It’s not really my year to plan. There is so much freedom in saying, “You know what? I don’t have to know”. It’s okay to have desires and to seek their fulfillment. By the same token we need to rest in God to give us His desires, which truly are best.

I’m going to rest in that, imperfectly, of course.

 

 

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  1. what thoughtful words! Here is to an amazing year!!
    Tamar recently posted..Song-osity: Measure a YearMy Profile

  2. Great words for 2015. I’m still toying around with mine, but might go with “mindfulness.”

    Here’s to a 2015 filled with God’s blessings, simple joys, good health, and peace in our hearts!
    Buckeroomama recently posted..Memories, Dreams, and Reflections 2014My Profile

  3. Happy New Year.

  4. I am absolutely buzzed by your photograph and spent a long time looking at it.. Why? Because I took one this week out the front of my house that is almost virtually identical and it is really rather spooky, the light, the cloud formation, the dark silhouette horizon all exactly the same. How weird is that. I will put it up on my blog at some point and let you know because it is just weird

    Mollyxxx

  5. Love your thoughts. They are really stirring and brewing around in my own head. I have a feeling we are very similar in very many ways. Wishing you a successful journey thru 2015…altho, I have no doubt you will achieve it. Happy New Year my friend 🙂

  6. I’ve been stuck on a word, too. Usually by November I have an idea of what my next word will be but not this year. The only thing that’s come to me is “enough”…. So I’m going with it I guess.
    Jill Foley recently posted..2014 in ReviewMy Profile

  7. So much of what you said is exactly what I’ve been thinking…I get so caught in my to do or should do list that I don’t “live” the moment to its fullest. I love your word pause and follow as I think God wants us to pause to listen to Him and follow Him with all our hearts. I pray you will be blessed with many blessings in 2015….

  8. I hope 2015 will be everything you want!
    tinajo recently posted..Starting 2015 in the lazy wayMy Profile

  9. I’ll start with…follow. Follow was the the “theme” at my wedding. All the songs centered around this word and I asked the pastor to write his little sermonette around it. Even then I knew I was going to need, forever and ever, to be reminded in some powerful way to stop trying to “make” our lives be ‘this way’ or ‘that way’ … It’s such an interesting line to walk between having our vision and dreams and surrendering all to God. Between knowing our voice and knowing what’s just noise from outside sources. I think that choosing follow is a strong choice – so good to elevate our awareness in this area…the work of a lifetime! And pause – this is excellent! Kind of goes with the word I’m choosing – you’ll see! One of the reason I love it is because it’s a great trigger word….for those crazy moments that come. Hit the pause button! I’m gonna use this for sure this year! And the notion of not filling every minute with scheduled things is so important…I’m so much better when I remember that. I’ve cut way back these last years, and find joy in my quiet, in between time. I want to take steps to put more back in my life without loosing the calm that I’m finding. Hugs to you!

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