This little season I’m in is a series of checks and balances. For every little struggle there has been some small happy to make everything more bearable.
There is so much busy currently. All of it is a good kind of busy, but coming at a time when I’m trying to field a lot of real life.
Like participating in a week of food events when you just realized you needed to change your diet to eliminate gluten. Or perhaps trying to figure out a plan for the child that needs more math help, and with that the expenses of tutoring. Not to mention the braces that the same child needs that come with a massive price tag because her situation is unique, not just cosmetic. Then there is the process of building a business while you homeschool and run a home. And knowing that this process isn’t for a hobby, but for being able to work at something you love without having to “go back to work”.
It’s an overwhelming time.
But those balances come.
They come in the form of an early spring daffodil. Or by way of the far away friend making sure you know you have value. And then doing it all over again 24 hours later with a treat from far away. It’s in the bun you can eat at a restaurant and the helpers who come to aid you in the kitchen at church for an event. It’s your daughter snagging the flag of her birth in the parade of flags. The gluten free pretzels that cost $6, but make you feel human. It’s in taking your children to the Asian market and watching them ooh and ahh over old favorites.
It’s in a 1000 little things. If you look.
It’s also in knowing that none of us own all the problems in the world and we are all just doing life. The best we can. Struggles, disappointments, and hardships are part of being human.
But so is joy.